Not a Journal

So Urban Dictionary defines "Grind" as a group of lesbians. Wait a sec... That wasn't what I was looking for.. hmm alright, maybe another definition of the word? Ah yes. Grind: "When an individual pushes his/herself to attain a goal" -second entry on UD. That will be the extent of my 'citing' of UD, I have no intent to provide a bibliography in this post. Don't worry, I know UD shouldn't be a source for information, but sometimes its the only option! Imagine people could use UD in school? That would be hilarious. Highschool essays would be very, very different. Also, I find it funny how this is actually below the group of lesbians definition but I digress. GUYS GUYS I finally used "I digress" in a post!!! Re my post a little while back. I don't actually know which one but fuck whatever I'm awesome. Anyways, I'm 5 days away from finishing the first 2 of 4 courses in this ridiculous transfer program from college to...

I know, great title. Well well, It's been a little while. The last time I sent one of these I was super pumped for a test I was totally ready for... which turned out to be pretty damn false. I failed it. I almost passed though! To be fair the class as a whole is completely out of my element so learning from scratch at this type of pace sucks. I know I know that's an excuse, but fuck don't judge me. I say that with love. The good news is I absolutely killed the calculus exam this week and reinstilled my confidence that I'm not wasting my time here. Two down, three more to go, well for this month at least. Crazy, right? So after this devastating episode of knowingly failing this test as I wrote it, I felt pretty damn shitty. And like, I never feel like that cause who the fuck feels... Just kidding, but my upsetness inspired my Dad to send way too many messages attempting to cheer/re-motivate me. His likely google search for these quotes probably looked something l...

Ohhh how glorious the study break can be. That's a lie... I honestly think the concept of it is a waste of time, but what do I know? Needless to say I am taking one to write this blog. But I'd say writing this is more like a stress reliever for me, never thought it would be but it has been so far. WOO! Stress. What is stress? Where's it even come from? Did we just invent the idea of it to make our lives easier when it gets rough? I'm way too lazy to research it though. I am also super busy lately. I went from doing absolutely nothing but binge watching tv and sleeping to non stop homework, lectures and less sleeping. I am adjusting I think pretty damn well. It's been just about two weeks and the first exam is tomorrow. Wait. TOMORROW. Yeah, then Wednesday, jeeze. When can you ever say a course started 10 days ago and the midterm is already tomorrow. Well, Thunder Bay, Ontario folks. Oh, I have bad news. My hair's falling out! Well, not really. It's li...

So it's been about a week here at Lakehead University and so far not too bad. I am almost shocked at the pace of these classes I'm in, but fitting a full school year into a month I suppose requires an equivalent pace to an F1 car. For those out of the loop, those go pretty fast (in a loop.. HA classic). For data whores, look up their speeds, I'm not google. Okay that was a bit uncalled for, but you get it. Hmm, what else is new? Lots actually! My latest discoveries are as follows: Want a pro tip for student laundry? Don't do it. Well, that sounds gross, what I mean is febreeze everything! Some fabric refresher right after wearing and hang immediately! Easily doubles the time between washes, that's not a scientific fact but like, good enough. Also, studying significantly reduces the urge to eat. I literally don't even think about food. Doing problems and practicing the math makes time fly by! And I actually don't mind it.. for now. It's only been ...

So this is going to be a brutally honest post. After two long days of travel with my wonderful parents, we arrived in Thunder Bay. I have to say, the second day's drive was absolutely beautiful. Mountains, Lake Superior and tons wildlife. It was awesome, although my feelings of starting this engineering program had not set in yet. Fast forward the unpacking and room organization process, and two days of orientation, I'm sitting here writing this blog. I spent the last 4 hours watching videos about old trig and functions math from high school and wow am I ever rusty. I haven't even cracked beginner calculus yet. It is safe to say my nerves are firing on all cylinders (Ha get it? Engineering, cylinders.. I'm hilarious.) All I kept hearing about these transfer courses are the insane amount of work and pressure I'll be experiencing and it kinda psyched me out. Won't know until later this week how fast they go and what the workload will be like but fuck me I fe...